Monday, 19 March 2018

Haul & first impressions: Darling Girl Cosmetics.


So my Darling Girl Cosmetics (DGC) order arrived today!
I was so worried that I would have to go on my trip to South Africa without a primer! Now I can chill.

So, this is what I got for my first order

I ordered two primers, Primped & Primed and Embellished Eye Primer. I wasn't really going to order anything but a bunch of primers as I go through them quite quickly but, I couldn't resist trying a few other bits and put others on hold...
I got 4 loose shadows.
Get A Room, MILF: A yellowish mustard colour which was something I was missing in my collection.
Touched By Taboo, MILF: A light grass green.
Wicked Ways, MILF: A beautiful teal.
Laissez Led Bone Temps Rouler, Mardi Gras: Ugh, this is such a pretty shimmer!!! It has a light green shift, looks wet on application and I'm in love... I used this as a highlighter for today's look.
Finally I ordered a Baby Blush in the shade Dolly Wink.
This is such a pretty lip & cheek tint for pale skin. I'm kinda surprised I haven't seen this more because it's absolutely wonderful!!! Applies so effortless, stains well and smells yummy!
Slightly sad I didn't order the other ones but then again, have to try a few things to prevent disappointment.

I was also sent a GWP shadow which I didn't realize was a thing so yay! It's Coffee & Tears which basically describes what last week was for me... And then I also got a little zip lock baggy with a gorgeous blue shadow in called Beast.

Here's the look I made today using some of the products, full details can be found on my Instagram @cynthiaiskillikill

Super happy with my purchase.
The shadows are really nice and easy to build up.
The tint is moisturising and very easy to blend for that perfect flushed effect without that intense initial ugly stain some stains can cause. And super easy to navigate the website as it has proper filters such as VEGAN! YAY!

Tuesday, 13 March 2018

Choosing to accept my own body.

Accepting my own body now that I live a healthier life and actually eat rather than starve myself as I did in my teens into my early 20s has been quite a challenge.

As a child I was never slim, I was what you'd call "fuller" but not fat. I had a bit I could grab and that was it.
In my more self-conscious teens I started eating less food. I basically lived on candy... And from the age of 18 to about 21 I lived on an occasional pizza, booze and meal replacement meals because I was lazy. I looked what was considered attractive back then, slim, could wear ANY skimpy outfit without pouring over anywhere.

But that all changed quickly as that lifestyle made me seriously I'll. To this day I have a very strange relationship with alcohol, I was not far from becoming an alcoholic, addicted to not feel and to avoid any responsibilities and thoughts after being quite a depressed teen.

Fast forward to today, I'm the healthiest I've been in my life.
I have been on a very long journey to help my body work better and get the nutrients I need for a well running mind. As healthy as I am today, I do love my treats and am living a much more sedentary life compared to back when I was starving myself.
I really want to get stronger now rather than slimmer.
I'm conscious of my body and I dress a bit more appropriate for me to look my best.

I love my life right now, sure I have a few days every now and then that I feel a bit down about not being the slim vixen I used to be but realistically it's not hard getting there.

I'm constantly learning about my body.
I never knew there was so much to it before and it was an even bigger eye opener when I did a bit of amateur modelling a few years back. I was tracking what I ate, strictly 1200 calories a day. I lost a few kilos but nothing crazy as I was the biggest I had been in my life when I got married due to the big lifestyle change that had happened of not drinking and partying on almost a daily basis. And I ate food!!! But seeing yourself as someone else sees you is quite strange... I NEVER saw myself as a very feminine or sensual being, I've always known I'm not bad looking but it felt foreign to me for many years as I grew up as a tomboy not every getting any attention until my late teens.

My wardrobe today is something my 17 year old self would probably frown upon but that's OK. I much rather put on a tank top with baggy jeans over a mini skirt, high heels and a skimpy top. I'm not judging anyone who's comfortable in that type of clothing!!! It's just not me anymore.

I love treating myself.
And I love being healthy, treats aren't necessarily unhealthy treats. My view on food has changed big time since I went vegan. Now I'm all about balancing nutrients and a treat is an avocado on toast or a bowl of grapes, occasionally a bag of chips because I do not kid myself.

I look at my flubber around my body and I'm at peace with it. It's not going to be there forever, it's not that I mind it but it's also not how I see myself in myself. I want to be the best version of myself at all times but for now I'm simply happy with my not so perfect body. I also don't have a single piece of clothing I can't fit into, I refuse to torture myself and hold on to an image of myself I will never want to be part of again. Those jeans we "one day will get back into" serve as nothing more than a guilt trap. Find a healthy diet to suit you, stick to it and work from there.

Don't hold on to things you realistically don't want for yourself, it's OK to change. It's OK to gain a kg or 10. I weigh exactly 10 kgs more than I did during my starving period.

Just look after yourself.
Stay focused on what matters and what matters is being healthy for yourself and the people you love. There's nothing worse than realizing you were harming yourself because of a horrible diet... And it's really expensive in the long run! Health is the only thing we have genuine power over.

Anyhow, you get the jist of it by now I hope.
I'm off to make myself breakfast!

Take care. ❤

Tuesday, 27 February 2018

Fashion: Fashion Week RTW Fall 2018 Favorites.

This was the first Fashion Week ever to catch me by surprise, I completely forgot it was a thing and to be honest I don't even know what day it is as I write this... There wasn't much to catch my attention as I went through what had been shown and I think a lot has to do with my commitment to buying and wanting to waste less as well as being vegan.

I do want to point out that I'm aware of a lot of houses still use fur and leather among other animal materials, this is in no way me promoting that side of the industry. I'm just genuinely passionate about fashion. I love designs, I love the runways, I love textures, the innovations, the way it makes me feel and how it makes me tingle inside when seeing my favorite designers work super styled on the best models. To me fashion is like eating... It's feast to my senses. But again, cruelty and abuse belongs in the past, EVERYTHING, can now be made without cruelty and slave labor. Slow, ethical fashion IS the future and I'm very much looking forward to it being mainstream rather than the mindless numb consumption which dominates and drives the continued slave fashion trade... Always check your labels before buying...

The first fashion house to make my heart feel "want" was Max Mara during Milan Fashion Week. I could see myself wearing 90% of what was seen on the runway, which is incredibly unusual.
I loved the androgynous feel and I am a sucker for a high marked waist which was what dominated this collection.
I also want to point out diversity, I think it was one of the most beautiful runways simply because of the ethnic diversity and how some models even used head wraps/hijab. Major credit for inclusion which gave it all a much more modern feel and also probably why I ended up feeling like I could see myself in so much of the collection. I grew up following Fashion Week since before I knew how to read and I have never felt this way before and perhaps it's also because of my new found "even if I look like a sausage, I don't give a shit what people think" attitude.

In general, as you will see, I'm all about comfortable fashion.
I like things I can see myself wearing to lunch, dinner and for a night out with the right accessories. I love loose pants or tops, a bit of sparkle and lots of textures. A good core wardrobe with a few stand out pieces is what I'm currently working towards and the following runways had lots of things I absolutely want... One day... Below are some of my persona favorites, there wasn't many things to be honest. There was a few bits from some other fashion houses but nothing I'd consider practical or worth using more than a handful of times. But again, it's my new mentality of wasting less and only keeping things I will use playing a big part in my narrow selection.

Max Mara:



Alberta Ferretti:






Wednesday, 31 January 2018

Haul & Review: Baby Bat Beauty.

About a year ago I won a random giveaway hosted by Baby Bat Beauty. I received the whole liquid lipstick collection which back then consisted of 7 shades. Since then BBB has exploded!

After not really having a good excuse for ordering I gave in during one of the crazy sales she had around Black Friday. As per usual it took a while for my items to arrive to the other side of the world where I live.

My order:
A tiny mirror which I desperately needed as I don't use any type of compacts.
Two lip balms which I am yet to use as I only open new ones once I've finished one. Flavors: Marshmallow Delight and Piña Colada Paradise... Which gave me a few boozy flashbacks, definitely smells like the drink mix.
My first ever gel eyeliner!!! Shade Enchantress which is a black.
Four lipsticks in the shades top to bottom: Devious, Lawless, Unwrapped and Exposed.

Top to bottom: Devious, Lawless, Unwrapped and Exposed.

I was quite surprised when I received these, two of the shades (Lawless and Exposed) I got felt very thin and applied streaky. I do think I got two odd ones as I did get in touch with the company to ask if they had changed the formula and they haven't. They also haven't received any complaints prior to me messaging about this issue, I was offered to get them replaced but I honestly don't need it. I did buy Exposed purely for mixing with other lipsticks to make them lighter.
It is however a shame that the Lawless I got is such a difficult shade to work with but it seems to be a universally hard shade to make without being streaky. I have four other similar corals from various brands (liquid and in bullet) and they are all streaky/patchy... And before anyone comes for me, I know how to make lipstick work, alrighty? Mmmmkay!?!

Lawless is gorgeous, just have to apply it thinly, blott and apply a thin layer again as it does look a bit dry if applied to thick, as most liquid lipsticks do.

The stars were definitely Devious, which I have worn A LOT and Unwrapped, which is a my lips but better. I love these two. I don't wear Unwrapped nearly as much as I'd like to for the simple reason that it washes me out if I wear it on it's own, I need a full face of make-up to pull off this nude.
Devious on the other hand is one of those shades I slap on and instantly look and feel like I've put in way more effort than I actually have. For me it lifts my complexion and looks more purple than it does in this picture.

The eyeliner is pleasant, doesn't crust or flake which is a win in my book. Mine did arrive a bit dry but I simply scraped the top layer of and it was good to go. It is a bit of a gamble for me to order things during this time of the year when temperatures are high and things have to sit in warm offices, moved in warm trucks then to sit in yet another warm office for sorting... My lip balms did arrive melted, which wasn't unexpected, it was just not a good time of the year for me to order things which can change in warmer weather.

But that's it folks!
Also let me know if you have tried any nice opaque coral lipsticks! I'm too stubborn to let it slip.

Thursday, 18 January 2018

Review: Colovaria Palette by Espionage Cosmetics.

First things first, yes I'm an ambassador for this brand but I did buy this with my own money and these are my unfiltered opinions. Shop small and support good people!

There! 🙌

So I finally made it back into my regular make-up playing and it feels so good!
I have so much to catch up on and share guyz!

Today's post is obviously about one of the new palettes from Espionage Cosmetics, who last year discontinued their whole line of make-up and started their revamp!
As much as I was heartbroken to see the loose shadows go, many of which are my favorites, it was the perfect time for Jaimie, Glitter Jedi aka Boss aka the nerd make-up wiz, to bring out the new and fresh line.

I pre-ordered the Colovaria palette when it was announced and everything about it has been great.
Colours are great, not crazy pigmented which makes this palette a perfect everyday addition but easy to build up. As per usual you'll get the best payoff using primer.

Colovaria Palette, shades L2R: Alohamora, Obliviate, Ferum and Lacarnum Inflamari.
This palette is nice and small, easy to travel with and you can absolutely do looks just using this one on it's own (looks only using this can be found on my Instagram @cynthiaiskillikill). It's easy to blend and the only one with glitter is Obliviate, all others are shimmery metallics.
I'm always excited to see palettes which serve as an addition to a base collection, especially now as there is what feels like a vast ocean of nude, neutral and matte palettes.
I'd happily use this one paired with my KvD Shade + Light palette and be done, which is what I've basically done since I got this. The only thing that I'm not a big fan of, which won't be an issue for everyone, is the brush holding part. I feel like that's a thing of the past, I like the brush itself as it's perfect for these shadows but I feel it makes it clunky. The mirror in this palette is a glass mirror and it's great. The overall packaging is awesome, it has a wonderful nerdy outside and most importantly, which a lot of brands seem to miss, IT'S EASY TO CLEAN!!! I absolutely HATE the cardboard palettes, they just get so grubby and peel and just ugh... I have a handful of them but I avoid them as I prefer single shadows.

In direct sun.

In she shade.
Shadows swatched over Notoriously Morbid Shadow Bind Glitter Adhesive and outlined with Baby Bat Beauty Liquid Lipstick in Raven.

All in all great.
I'm also really looking forward to the coming additions from Espionage Cosmetics!!! Make sure to follow them on all social media for updates, sales and just awesome nerdy stuff.
Next they'll be coming out with single shadows cartridges!!!
They look just like GameBoy cartridges and I'm so in love!!!

Good stuff.

Take care and see you around!

Thursday, 4 January 2018

2018 Make-up Goals.

After a lot of consideration I've decided to keep my purchases for 2018 on a "Need" basis rather than "want".

In short I'll be able to do a lot more reviews of what's in my stash, will be decluttering more frequently based on what I don't reach for and actually finish products.

I'm currently working on my first declutter and have just finished rearranging my vanity so it feels less chaotic.

Every so often I plan on doing a " products of the X" where I'll swatch my favorite things and do a short review.

There are loads of things I want...
But I still have a few orders which are on their way to me from the holidays so it won't be all dead on the haul front.

As for skincare I will splurge this year, I love skincare and it's my daily pampering self care must!

Just wanted to share this little idea.
Still also transitioning into a vegan life.
I have so far only upgraded my products which is a pleasant surprise as I was a bit worried about having to sacrifice quality for ethics but that hasn't been the case as of yet.

And happy new year!

Tuesday, 5 December 2017

Empties Autumn 2017.

These have been sitting on my vanity for far too long!
Been meaning to do an empties for a while. I accidentally threw away my last batch when I got into a cleaning frenzy...

By:  Pixi Beauty
What is it: Glycolic Exfoliating Pads.
Will I repurchase: Yes, already have.
Why: This have been my skin savior. In the beginning I used it once a month and slowly worked my skin into better shape. I now use it weekly and has made a huge difference in my skin, all for the better of course.

By:  Twisted Wonderland Perfumery.
What is it: Lip Balms.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: It's not vegan. I bought these before I decided to become vegan. They're lovely, great fragrances and lovely texture and I'd recommend them to anyone who's looking for a good balm.

By: Southern Comforts Fragrance.
What is it: Two Body Balms and a Body Lotion.
Will I repurchase: No to the lotion. Yes to the balms, already have.
Why: The lotion was beautifully scented but my skin is far too dry to benefit from it. The balms have become my addiction. I have half a drawer of them already...

By: Salt of The Earth.
What is it: Spray Natural Unscented Deodorant.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: I have better ones.
By: Neve Cosmetics.
What is it: Cream to Powder Concealer.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: This didn't work for me. I tried different bases, ways of setting it and it just made my pores look huge. Unflattering and difficult to work with, looked cakey.

By: Zodiac Killer Cosmetics.
What is it: Liquid Lipsticks.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: I did use these quite a lot as eyeliners and enjoyed doing so but they didn't set completely matte. Very pretty but not the most practical for long wear in the heat.

By: Stila Cosmetics.
What is it: Waterproof Mascara.
Will I repurchase: Maybe.
Why: This is one of my top 3 formulas, love the brush and it keeps my lashes curled through the day. I'm  of sure I will get it again any time soon as I'm still testing a lot of new ones...

By: NYX Cosmetics.
What is it: Eye Crayons/bases.
Will I repurchase: No.

Why: Not a fan of the formula. It feels to greasy, it creases as a base and I'd rather pay a bit more for a cream/liquid concealer to mix with a pigment than use these. I don't get the hype, is it because of the price? I used the white one a bit more as it was a decent base for my shenanigans.. But no. I won these and I'm kinda happy I didn't spend the money myself...

By: African Extracts.
What is it: Triple Action Serum
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: This is garbage. Reeks of alcohol, dries the skin (fucking genius!) and you have to work super fast with it (due to the high alcohol content). I tried to make it work, I eventually used it as a base for my hand and foot cream... But the freaking container broke!!! Just over this crap. Has definitely turned me off drugstore skincare...

By: Absolute New York.
What is it: Eyeshadow Primer.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: I loved this primer while I was using it but I'm moving towards new stuff. We had a good run. Never had any issues with it, never creased or faded my shadow.

Ah, now I can finally get rid of all these empty things!!!
Gives me a bit of anxiety seeing them... I hate clutter...
I have a fear of becoming a hoarder. 😂

Next post will be the final part of my Christmas Wish list: Beauty Gadgets!