Accepting my own body now that I live a healthier life and actually eat rather than starve myself as I did in my teens into my early 20s has been quite a challenge.
As a child I was never slim, I was what you'd call "fuller" but not fat. I had a bit I could grab and that was it.
In my more self-conscious teens I started eating less food. I basically lived on candy... And from the age of 18 to about 21 I lived on an occasional pizza, booze and meal replacement meals because I was lazy. I looked what was considered attractive back then, slim, could wear ANY skimpy outfit without pouring over anywhere.
But that all changed quickly as that lifestyle made me seriously I'll. To this day I have a very strange relationship with alcohol, I was not far from becoming an alcoholic, addicted to not feel and to avoid any responsibilities and thoughts after being quite a depressed teen.
Fast forward to today, I'm the healthiest I've been in my life.
I have been on a very long journey to help my body work better and get the nutrients I need for a well running mind. As healthy as I am today, I do love my treats and am living a much more sedentary life compared to back when I was starving myself.
I really want to get stronger now rather than slimmer.
I'm conscious of my body and I dress a bit more appropriate for me to look my best.
I love my life right now, sure I have a few days every now and then that I feel a bit down about not being the slim vixen I used to be but realistically it's not hard getting there.
I'm constantly learning about my body.
I never knew there was so much to it before and it was an even bigger eye opener when I did a bit of amateur modelling a few years back. I was tracking what I ate, strictly 1200 calories a day. I lost a few kilos but nothing crazy as I was the biggest I had been in my life when I got married due to the big lifestyle change that had happened of not drinking and partying on almost a daily basis. And I ate food!!! But seeing yourself as someone else sees you is quite strange... I NEVER saw myself as a very feminine or sensual being, I've always known I'm not bad looking but it felt foreign to me for many years as I grew up as a tomboy not every getting any attention until my late teens.
My wardrobe today is something my 17 year old self would probably frown upon but that's OK. I much rather put on a tank top with baggy jeans over a mini skirt, high heels and a skimpy top. I'm not judging anyone who's comfortable in that type of clothing!!! It's just not me anymore.
I love treating myself.
And I love being healthy, treats aren't necessarily unhealthy treats. My view on food has changed big time since I went vegan. Now I'm all about balancing nutrients and a treat is an avocado on toast or a bowl of grapes, occasionally a bag of chips because I do not kid myself.
I look at my flubber around my body and I'm at peace with it. It's not going to be there forever, it's not that I mind it but it's also not how I see myself in myself. I want to be the best version of myself at all times but for now I'm simply happy with my not so perfect body. I also don't have a single piece of clothing I can't fit into, I refuse to torture myself and hold on to an image of myself I will never want to be part of again. Those jeans we "one day will get back into" serve as nothing more than a guilt trap. Find a healthy diet to suit you, stick to it and work from there.
Don't hold on to things you realistically don't want for yourself, it's OK to change. It's OK to gain a kg or 10. I weigh exactly 10 kgs more than I did during my starving period.
Just look after yourself.
Stay focused on what matters and what matters is being healthy for yourself and the people you love. There's nothing worse than realizing you were harming yourself because of a horrible diet... And it's really expensive in the long run! Health is the only thing we have genuine power over.
Anyhow, you get the jist of it by now I hope.
I'm off to make myself breakfast!
Take care. ❤
Tuesday, 13 March 2018
Tuesday, 27 February 2018
Fashion: Fashion Week RTW Fall 2018 Favorites.
This was the first Fashion Week ever to catch me by surprise, I completely forgot it was a thing and to be honest I don't even know what day it is as I write this... There wasn't much to catch my attention as I went through what had been shown and I think a lot has to do with my commitment to buying and wanting to waste less as well as being vegan.
I do want to point out that I'm aware of a lot of houses still use fur and leather among other animal materials, this is in no way me promoting that side of the industry. I'm just genuinely passionate about fashion. I love designs, I love the runways, I love textures, the innovations, the way it makes me feel and how it makes me tingle inside when seeing my favorite designers work super styled on the best models. To me fashion is like eating... It's feast to my senses. But again, cruelty and abuse belongs in the past, EVERYTHING, can now be made without cruelty and slave labor. Slow, ethical fashion IS the future and I'm very much looking forward to it being mainstream rather than the mindless numb consumption which dominates and drives the continued slave fashion trade... Always check your labels before buying...
The first fashion house to make my heart feel "want" was Max Mara during Milan Fashion Week. I could see myself wearing 90% of what was seen on the runway, which is incredibly unusual.
I loved the androgynous feel and I am a sucker for a high marked waist which was what dominated this collection.
I also want to point out diversity, I think it was one of the most beautiful runways simply because of the ethnic diversity and how some models even used head wraps/hijab. Major credit for inclusion which gave it all a much more modern feel and also probably why I ended up feeling like I could see myself in so much of the collection. I grew up following Fashion Week since before I knew how to read and I have never felt this way before and perhaps it's also because of my new found "even if I look like a sausage, I don't give a shit what people think" attitude.
In general, as you will see, I'm all about comfortable fashion.
I like things I can see myself wearing to lunch, dinner and for a night out with the right accessories. I love loose pants or tops, a bit of sparkle and lots of textures. A good core wardrobe with a few stand out pieces is what I'm currently working towards and the following runways had lots of things I absolutely want... One day... Below are some of my persona favorites, there wasn't many things to be honest. There was a few bits from some other fashion houses but nothing I'd consider practical or worth using more than a handful of times. But again, it's my new mentality of wasting less and only keeping things I will use playing a big part in my narrow selection.
I do want to point out that I'm aware of a lot of houses still use fur and leather among other animal materials, this is in no way me promoting that side of the industry. I'm just genuinely passionate about fashion. I love designs, I love the runways, I love textures, the innovations, the way it makes me feel and how it makes me tingle inside when seeing my favorite designers work super styled on the best models. To me fashion is like eating... It's feast to my senses. But again, cruelty and abuse belongs in the past, EVERYTHING, can now be made without cruelty and slave labor. Slow, ethical fashion IS the future and I'm very much looking forward to it being mainstream rather than the mindless numb consumption which dominates and drives the continued slave fashion trade... Always check your labels before buying...
The first fashion house to make my heart feel "want" was Max Mara during Milan Fashion Week. I could see myself wearing 90% of what was seen on the runway, which is incredibly unusual.
I loved the androgynous feel and I am a sucker for a high marked waist which was what dominated this collection.
I also want to point out diversity, I think it was one of the most beautiful runways simply because of the ethnic diversity and how some models even used head wraps/hijab. Major credit for inclusion which gave it all a much more modern feel and also probably why I ended up feeling like I could see myself in so much of the collection. I grew up following Fashion Week since before I knew how to read and I have never felt this way before and perhaps it's also because of my new found "even if I look like a sausage, I don't give a shit what people think" attitude.
In general, as you will see, I'm all about comfortable fashion.
I like things I can see myself wearing to lunch, dinner and for a night out with the right accessories. I love loose pants or tops, a bit of sparkle and lots of textures. A good core wardrobe with a few stand out pieces is what I'm currently working towards and the following runways had lots of things I absolutely want... One day... Below are some of my persona favorites, there wasn't many things to be honest. There was a few bits from some other fashion houses but nothing I'd consider practical or worth using more than a handful of times. But again, it's my new mentality of wasting less and only keeping things I will use playing a big part in my narrow selection.
Max Mara:
Alberta Ferretti:
Genny:
Wednesday, 31 January 2018
Haul & Review: Baby Bat Beauty.
About a year ago I won a random giveaway hosted by Baby Bat Beauty. I received the whole liquid lipstick collection which back then consisted of 7 shades. Since then BBB has exploded!
After not really having a good excuse for ordering I gave in during one of the crazy sales she had around Black Friday. As per usual it took a while for my items to arrive to the other side of the world where I live.
My order:
A tiny mirror which I desperately needed as I don't use any type of compacts.
Two lip balms which I am yet to use as I only open new ones once I've finished one. Flavors: Marshmallow Delight and Piña Colada Paradise... Which gave me a few boozy flashbacks, definitely smells like the drink mix.
My first ever gel eyeliner!!! Shade Enchantress which is a black.
Four lipsticks in the shades top to bottom: Devious, Lawless, Unwrapped and Exposed.
I was quite surprised when I received these, two of the shades (Lawless and Exposed) I got felt very thin and applied streaky. I do think I got two odd ones as I did get in touch with the company to ask if they had changed the formula and they haven't. They also haven't received any complaints prior to me messaging about this issue, I was offered to get them replaced but I honestly don't need it. I did buy Exposed purely for mixing with other lipsticks to make them lighter.
It is however a shame that the Lawless I got is such a difficult shade to work with but it seems to be a universally hard shade to make without being streaky. I have four other similar corals from various brands (liquid and in bullet) and they are all streaky/patchy... And before anyone comes for me, I know how to make lipstick work, alrighty? Mmmmkay!?!
Anyhow.
Lawless is gorgeous, just have to apply it thinly, blott and apply a thin layer again as it does look a bit dry if applied to thick, as most liquid lipsticks do.
The stars were definitely Devious, which I have worn A LOT and Unwrapped, which is a my lips but better. I love these two. I don't wear Unwrapped nearly as much as I'd like to for the simple reason that it washes me out if I wear it on it's own, I need a full face of make-up to pull off this nude.
Devious on the other hand is one of those shades I slap on and instantly look and feel like I've put in way more effort than I actually have. For me it lifts my complexion and looks more purple than it does in this picture.
The eyeliner is pleasant, doesn't crust or flake which is a win in my book. Mine did arrive a bit dry but I simply scraped the top layer of and it was good to go. It is a bit of a gamble for me to order things during this time of the year when temperatures are high and things have to sit in warm offices, moved in warm trucks then to sit in yet another warm office for sorting... My lip balms did arrive melted, which wasn't unexpected, it was just not a good time of the year for me to order things which can change in warmer weather.
But that's it folks!
Also let me know if you have tried any nice opaque coral lipsticks! I'm too stubborn to let it slip.
After not really having a good excuse for ordering I gave in during one of the crazy sales she had around Black Friday. As per usual it took a while for my items to arrive to the other side of the world where I live.
My order:
A tiny mirror which I desperately needed as I don't use any type of compacts.
Two lip balms which I am yet to use as I only open new ones once I've finished one. Flavors: Marshmallow Delight and Piña Colada Paradise... Which gave me a few boozy flashbacks, definitely smells like the drink mix.
My first ever gel eyeliner!!! Shade Enchantress which is a black.
Four lipsticks in the shades top to bottom: Devious, Lawless, Unwrapped and Exposed.
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| Top to bottom: Devious, Lawless, Unwrapped and Exposed. |
I was quite surprised when I received these, two of the shades (Lawless and Exposed) I got felt very thin and applied streaky. I do think I got two odd ones as I did get in touch with the company to ask if they had changed the formula and they haven't. They also haven't received any complaints prior to me messaging about this issue, I was offered to get them replaced but I honestly don't need it. I did buy Exposed purely for mixing with other lipsticks to make them lighter.
It is however a shame that the Lawless I got is such a difficult shade to work with but it seems to be a universally hard shade to make without being streaky. I have four other similar corals from various brands (liquid and in bullet) and they are all streaky/patchy... And before anyone comes for me, I know how to make lipstick work, alrighty? Mmmmkay!?!
Anyhow.
Lawless is gorgeous, just have to apply it thinly, blott and apply a thin layer again as it does look a bit dry if applied to thick, as most liquid lipsticks do.
The stars were definitely Devious, which I have worn A LOT and Unwrapped, which is a my lips but better. I love these two. I don't wear Unwrapped nearly as much as I'd like to for the simple reason that it washes me out if I wear it on it's own, I need a full face of make-up to pull off this nude.
Devious on the other hand is one of those shades I slap on and instantly look and feel like I've put in way more effort than I actually have. For me it lifts my complexion and looks more purple than it does in this picture.
The eyeliner is pleasant, doesn't crust or flake which is a win in my book. Mine did arrive a bit dry but I simply scraped the top layer of and it was good to go. It is a bit of a gamble for me to order things during this time of the year when temperatures are high and things have to sit in warm offices, moved in warm trucks then to sit in yet another warm office for sorting... My lip balms did arrive melted, which wasn't unexpected, it was just not a good time of the year for me to order things which can change in warmer weather.
But that's it folks!
Also let me know if you have tried any nice opaque coral lipsticks! I'm too stubborn to let it slip.
Thursday, 18 January 2018
Review: Colovaria Palette by Espionage Cosmetics.
First things first, yes I'm an ambassador for this brand but I did buy this with my own money and these are my unfiltered opinions. Shop small and support good people!
There! 🙌
So I finally made it back into my regular make-up playing and it feels so good!
I have so much to catch up on and share guyz!
Today's post is obviously about one of the new palettes from Espionage Cosmetics, who last year discontinued their whole line of make-up and started their revamp!
As much as I was heartbroken to see the loose shadows go, many of which are my favorites, it was the perfect time for Jaimie, Glitter Jedi aka Boss aka the nerd make-up wiz, to bring out the new and fresh line.
I pre-ordered the Colovaria palette when it was announced and everything about it has been great.
Colours are great, not crazy pigmented which makes this palette a perfect everyday addition but easy to build up. As per usual you'll get the best payoff using primer.
This palette is nice and small, easy to travel with and you can absolutely do looks just using this one on it's own (looks only using this can be found on my Instagram @cynthiaiskillikill). It's easy to blend and the only one with glitter is Obliviate, all others are shimmery metallics.
I'm always excited to see palettes which serve as an addition to a base collection, especially now as there is what feels like a vast ocean of nude, neutral and matte palettes.
I'd happily use this one paired with my KvD Shade + Light palette and be done, which is what I've basically done since I got this. The only thing that I'm not a big fan of, which won't be an issue for everyone, is the brush holding part. I feel like that's a thing of the past, I like the brush itself as it's perfect for these shadows but I feel it makes it clunky. The mirror in this palette is a glass mirror and it's great. The overall packaging is awesome, it has a wonderful nerdy outside and most importantly, which a lot of brands seem to miss, IT'S EASY TO CLEAN!!! I absolutely HATE the cardboard palettes, they just get so grubby and peel and just ugh... I have a handful of them but I avoid them as I prefer single shadows.
Shadows swatched over Notoriously Morbid Shadow Bind Glitter Adhesive and outlined with Baby Bat Beauty Liquid Lipstick in Raven.
All in all great.
I'm also really looking forward to the coming additions from Espionage Cosmetics!!! Make sure to follow them on all social media for updates, sales and just awesome nerdy stuff.
Next they'll be coming out with single shadows cartridges!!!
They look just like GameBoy cartridges and I'm so in love!!!
Anyhow...
Good stuff.
Take care and see you around!
There! 🙌
So I finally made it back into my regular make-up playing and it feels so good!
I have so much to catch up on and share guyz!
Today's post is obviously about one of the new palettes from Espionage Cosmetics, who last year discontinued their whole line of make-up and started their revamp!
As much as I was heartbroken to see the loose shadows go, many of which are my favorites, it was the perfect time for Jaimie, Glitter Jedi aka Boss aka the nerd make-up wiz, to bring out the new and fresh line.
I pre-ordered the Colovaria palette when it was announced and everything about it has been great.
Colours are great, not crazy pigmented which makes this palette a perfect everyday addition but easy to build up. As per usual you'll get the best payoff using primer.
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| Colovaria Palette, shades L2R: Alohamora, Obliviate, Ferum and Lacarnum Inflamari. |
I'm always excited to see palettes which serve as an addition to a base collection, especially now as there is what feels like a vast ocean of nude, neutral and matte palettes.
I'd happily use this one paired with my KvD Shade + Light palette and be done, which is what I've basically done since I got this. The only thing that I'm not a big fan of, which won't be an issue for everyone, is the brush holding part. I feel like that's a thing of the past, I like the brush itself as it's perfect for these shadows but I feel it makes it clunky. The mirror in this palette is a glass mirror and it's great. The overall packaging is awesome, it has a wonderful nerdy outside and most importantly, which a lot of brands seem to miss, IT'S EASY TO CLEAN!!! I absolutely HATE the cardboard palettes, they just get so grubby and peel and just ugh... I have a handful of them but I avoid them as I prefer single shadows.
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| In direct sun. |
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| In she shade. |
All in all great.
I'm also really looking forward to the coming additions from Espionage Cosmetics!!! Make sure to follow them on all social media for updates, sales and just awesome nerdy stuff.
Next they'll be coming out with single shadows cartridges!!!
They look just like GameBoy cartridges and I'm so in love!!!
Anyhow...
Good stuff.
Take care and see you around!
Thursday, 4 January 2018
2018 Make-up Goals.
After a lot of consideration I've decided to keep my purchases for 2018 on a "Need" basis rather than "want".
In short I'll be able to do a lot more reviews of what's in my stash, will be decluttering more frequently based on what I don't reach for and actually finish products.
I'm currently working on my first declutter and have just finished rearranging my vanity so it feels less chaotic.
Every so often I plan on doing a " products of the X" where I'll swatch my favorite things and do a short review.
There are loads of things I want...
But I still have a few orders which are on their way to me from the holidays so it won't be all dead on the haul front.
As for skincare I will splurge this year, I love skincare and it's my daily pampering self care must!
Just wanted to share this little idea.
Still also transitioning into a vegan life.
I have so far only upgraded my products which is a pleasant surprise as I was a bit worried about having to sacrifice quality for ethics but that hasn't been the case as of yet.
And happy new year!
🙌😂💖
In short I'll be able to do a lot more reviews of what's in my stash, will be decluttering more frequently based on what I don't reach for and actually finish products.
I'm currently working on my first declutter and have just finished rearranging my vanity so it feels less chaotic.
Every so often I plan on doing a " products of the X" where I'll swatch my favorite things and do a short review.
There are loads of things I want...
But I still have a few orders which are on their way to me from the holidays so it won't be all dead on the haul front.
As for skincare I will splurge this year, I love skincare and it's my daily pampering self care must!
Just wanted to share this little idea.
Still also transitioning into a vegan life.
I have so far only upgraded my products which is a pleasant surprise as I was a bit worried about having to sacrifice quality for ethics but that hasn't been the case as of yet.
And happy new year!
🙌😂💖
Tuesday, 5 December 2017
Empties Autumn 2017.
These have been sitting on my vanity for far too long!
Been meaning to do an empties for a while. I accidentally threw away my last batch when I got into a cleaning frenzy...
By: Pixi Beauty
What is it: Glycolic Exfoliating Pads.
Will I repurchase: Yes, already have.
Why: This have been my skin savior. In the beginning I used it once a month and slowly worked my skin into better shape. I now use it weekly and has made a huge difference in my skin, all for the better of course.
By: Twisted Wonderland Perfumery.
What is it: Lip Balms.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: It's not vegan. I bought these before I decided to become vegan. They're lovely, great fragrances and lovely texture and I'd recommend them to anyone who's looking for a good balm.
What is it: Two Body Balms and a Body Lotion.
Will I repurchase: No to the lotion. Yes to the balms, already have.
Why: The lotion was beautifully scented but my skin is far too dry to benefit from it. The balms have become my addiction. I have half a drawer of them already...
What is it: Spray Natural Unscented Deodorant.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: I have better ones.
What is it: Cream to Powder Concealer.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: This didn't work for me. I tried different bases, ways of setting it and it just made my pores look huge. Unflattering and difficult to work with, looked cakey.
What is it: Liquid Lipsticks.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: I did use these quite a lot as eyeliners and enjoyed doing so but they didn't set completely matte. Very pretty but not the most practical for long wear in the heat.
What is it: Waterproof Mascara.
Will I repurchase: Maybe.
Why: This is one of my top 3 formulas, love the brush and it keeps my lashes curled through the day. I'm of sure I will get it again any time soon as I'm still testing a lot of new ones...
What is it: Eye Crayons/bases.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: Not a fan of the formula. It feels to greasy, it creases as a base and I'd rather pay a bit more for a cream/liquid concealer to mix with a pigment than use these. I don't get the hype, is it because of the price? I used the white one a bit more as it was a decent base for my shenanigans.. But no. I won these and I'm kinda happy I didn't spend the money myself...
What is it: Triple Action Serum
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: This is garbage. Reeks of alcohol, dries the skin (fucking genius!) and you have to work super fast with it (due to the high alcohol content). I tried to make it work, I eventually used it as a base for my hand and foot cream... But the freaking container broke!!! Just over this crap. Has definitely turned me off drugstore skincare...
What is it: Eyeshadow Primer.
Will I repurchase: No.
Why: I loved this primer while I was using it but I'm moving towards new stuff. We had a good run. Never had any issues with it, never creased or faded my shadow.
Ah, now I can finally get rid of all these empty things!!!
Gives me a bit of anxiety seeing them... I hate clutter...
I have a fear of becoming a hoarder. 😂
Anyhow.
Next post will be the final part of my Christmas Wish list: Beauty Gadgets!
Sunday, 19 November 2017
Christmas wish list: Fashion Edition.
Alright.
There's a ridiculous amount of things I want but I managed to narrow it down to what I believe to be a great wardrobe update kind of post.
I believe in buying quality over quantity and rather investment pieces than landfill fashion. I buy slow fashion or second hand nowadays as much as I can. Most of my wardrobe consists of pieces which I've had for +10 years.
Just wanted to put it out there as I know some of the things might seem steep... I indulge when it comes to fashion, I do lots of research and when I finally decide to purchase a special piece it's a real treat, and again, I rarely do, might happen once a year or every other year. I'm also really picky...
So let's get into it:
Let's start with my weakness, sequins. 😍
This beautiful sequined canvas tote by Ashish is my ultimate want item right now. I would rarely get a chance to use it where I'm currently living but I can see myself making excuses to use it.
Net-a-porter made me want it even more thanks to the styling of the model seeing as that's how I normally dress, minus stilettos on a day to day basis... But again, I'd probably throw on a pair for this bag.
Black Falabella Mini Shoulder Bag by Stella McCarthy.
A great staple in any wardrobe for both day and night.
Shoes! Both from Beyond Skin and perfect for everything.
I'm a baggy jeans and harem pant person so these are 👌
The Angela Coat in Umber by Vaute Couture.
Ah, how I miss the cold... Obviously something I won't buy while in in Zambia but it's my day dream item of the season.
This coat would have been perfect for winter!
The Angela Tie Print Shirt by Stella McCarthy.
I love menswear inspired clothing and I find this to be such a fun way to wear dressy but still be casual... Has tiny Westie doggies on it... 😍 So cute!
KowTow Building Block V Tee.
A must in every wardrobe is this type of shirts. They are so versatile, can go from casual to dressy by just putting on some bling and they're so comfy. Underwear is crucial with this type of clothing for it to look good. Any weird bumps or textures showing up because of bad underwear will ruin this.
Marian Denim by Kings of Indigo.
On my to-buy list right now. I recently discovered Kings of Indigo and I'm really liking everything... I have bought one of the Yetta skirts which will be arriving early December and I'm so excited!
These pants are the kinds of pants I'd use everywhere. My mom would hate them but I love the comfy, shapeless jeans! I can't resist them! They're so easy to wear no matter how your body is acting and can be super feminine by just adding a floral/silky shirt. I'd of course never wear it as styled in the pictures but that's just me. Add heels and it's me.
But that's it for now.
I think this post really represents my style.
I'm a very basic kind of clothing person but I love statement accessories. I will always go for comfort everywhere except for my shoes, I love my heels and will absolutely defy the Zambian landscape with them.
Next part in the Wish List series will be beauty tools coming late next week!
Have a lovely week and hope you've found some inspiration!
There's a ridiculous amount of things I want but I managed to narrow it down to what I believe to be a great wardrobe update kind of post.
I believe in buying quality over quantity and rather investment pieces than landfill fashion. I buy slow fashion or second hand nowadays as much as I can. Most of my wardrobe consists of pieces which I've had for +10 years.
Just wanted to put it out there as I know some of the things might seem steep... I indulge when it comes to fashion, I do lots of research and when I finally decide to purchase a special piece it's a real treat, and again, I rarely do, might happen once a year or every other year. I'm also really picky...
So let's get into it:
Let's start with my weakness, sequins. 😍
This beautiful sequined canvas tote by Ashish is my ultimate want item right now. I would rarely get a chance to use it where I'm currently living but I can see myself making excuses to use it.
Net-a-porter made me want it even more thanks to the styling of the model seeing as that's how I normally dress, minus stilettos on a day to day basis... But again, I'd probably throw on a pair for this bag.
Black Falabella Mini Shoulder Bag by Stella McCarthy.
A great staple in any wardrobe for both day and night.
Shoes! Both from Beyond Skin and perfect for everything.
I'm a baggy jeans and harem pant person so these are 👌
The Angela Coat in Umber by Vaute Couture.
Ah, how I miss the cold... Obviously something I won't buy while in in Zambia but it's my day dream item of the season.
This coat would have been perfect for winter!
The Angela Tie Print Shirt by Stella McCarthy.
I love menswear inspired clothing and I find this to be such a fun way to wear dressy but still be casual... Has tiny Westie doggies on it... 😍 So cute!
KowTow Building Block V Tee.
A must in every wardrobe is this type of shirts. They are so versatile, can go from casual to dressy by just putting on some bling and they're so comfy. Underwear is crucial with this type of clothing for it to look good. Any weird bumps or textures showing up because of bad underwear will ruin this.
Marian Denim by Kings of Indigo.
On my to-buy list right now. I recently discovered Kings of Indigo and I'm really liking everything... I have bought one of the Yetta skirts which will be arriving early December and I'm so excited!
These pants are the kinds of pants I'd use everywhere. My mom would hate them but I love the comfy, shapeless jeans! I can't resist them! They're so easy to wear no matter how your body is acting and can be super feminine by just adding a floral/silky shirt. I'd of course never wear it as styled in the pictures but that's just me. Add heels and it's me.
But that's it for now.
I think this post really represents my style.
I'm a very basic kind of clothing person but I love statement accessories. I will always go for comfort everywhere except for my shoes, I love my heels and will absolutely defy the Zambian landscape with them.
Next part in the Wish List series will be beauty tools coming late next week!
Have a lovely week and hope you've found some inspiration!
Saturday, 4 November 2017
Christmas wish list: Beauty edition.
Thought I'd share a few bits I personally really want for Christmas to perhaps give you some inspiration if you're a bit lost and overwhelmed by the vast ocean of products out on the market right now.
Let's start with an odd one:
Let's start with an odd one:
Hair caring, no kink, strong hold – invisibobble® ORIGINAL’s unique spiral shape makes it possible! That’s why the invisibobble® hair tie is the perfect companion for every occasion!
I basically live in a ponytail and keep doing so because of the horrible crease regular hair ties create in the hair. There's no way I will style my hair over between washes, I'm not the kind of person who deals with hairstyling. But I saw my yoga instructor wearing this and when she took it off her hair was so nice! Sorcery I yelled! (No I didn't but wish I had now...).
I have ordered the Christmas cracker from this company so I'll keep you posted on how things go, I'm so excited!
I basically live in a ponytail and keep doing so because of the horrible crease regular hair ties create in the hair. There's no way I will style my hair over between washes, I'm not the kind of person who deals with hairstyling. But I saw my yoga instructor wearing this and when she took it off her hair was so nice! Sorcery I yelled! (No I didn't but wish I had now...).
I have ordered the Christmas cracker from this company so I'll keep you posted on how things go, I'm so excited!
About Trinny and her Stack:
For the last 20 years I have worked with women all over the world. They have shared with me their fears, frustrations, and joys about trying to look their best. I help them find the most flattering styles, the best skincare, and the most hard-working, perfectly matched, foolproof makeup ❤ After 3 years of experimenting, planning, developing and re-developing fabulous formulas, and state-of-the-art technology to pinpoint which makeup truly suits you, I am so proud to launch the ultimate easy, modern, do-it-everywhere, premium makeup brand: TRINNY LONDON.
I grew up watching Trinny on TV and have always loved her sense of beauty, she's gorgeous and always looks stunning but never over the top, she's always perfectly natural but done and tidy. I have been looking at these pots since they launched, trying to decide and be reasonable... I want it all! Unfortunately it's not all Vegan but what is vegan is clearly marked under the products which I really appreciate. A beautiful line for a quick daily face meant to be used with your fingers.
Totally sold on this and will absolutely get a few bits in the new year as I've been bad and spent way too much this month...
About the brand:
Lethal Cosmetics is an independent, PETA-certified vegan and cruelty-free makeup brand from Berlin, Germany. We formulate, produce and distribute professional-quality color cosmetics for an alternative audience of ethical makeup-addicts.
Until this year I have never been a fan of lip products, then something happened and I'm freaking loving lip liners and lipsticks! I have built a decent collection in no time and I have fallen for Lethal Cosmetics formula. It can be drying but I have figured it out and I only have one shade for now but will absolutely expand as soon as I can order everything else... There won't be any holding back!
A product which doesn't need an introduction.
I just ordered my first bottle and I'm so excited!!! I've been working through a list of beauty products I've wanted to try and it's finally this gems turn. I have zero doubts, I believe all the praise and I went a bit nuts and ordered a few other bits from Pixi which I will share as soon as I receive my delivery in a week or two...
I want all the wraps.
Anyone who follows me on Instagram knows I'm a #nerdmakeupambassador for Espionage Cosmetics so this shouldn't come as a surprise.
Anyone who follows me on Instagram knows I'm a #nerdmakeupambassador for Espionage Cosmetics so this shouldn't come as a surprise.
I frakin love this company and have a love hate relationship with the nail wraps simply because they're amazing but it breaks my heart using them... I just can't be reasonable with my feelings for these. I have so many left and want so many more and they keep making me squee with everything they come out with... It's a problem, not really but kind off...
(I'm in denial. Shhh... Let me live!)
(I'm in denial. Shhh... Let me live!)
So yeah, have a browse, there's a direct link on my main page here on the blog, which yes, is an affiliated link but all earnings are going to more wraps... Not even kidding. That's all I ever want from them. They do take a bit of fiddling to get on properly but will stay on well over a week with a good top coat and the best part is that they don't chip! Oh, and there's two brand spanking new eyeshadow palettes as well... Which again, I'm going to do a review on, still catching up on life over here after mine and the husbands surgeries. 😰
Again, a brand that doesn't need an introduction.
I was supposed to buy these...
Then The Harvey Nichols GWP happened and I went a bit nuts over on their site...
But these three products are the ones I've been eyeing and really want to try. I'm still on the fence about the toner which is cult to the skincare crowds. I don't quite know why... Perhaps it's the price... Not that these are incredibly cheap. I do spend most of my money on skincare because it's always a good investment so next time... I'm coming for these. But will see about the toner... Need more convincing.
Southern Comforts Fragrances
(SoCoFragrance)
I can not begin to tell you guys how much I love everything Allison makes... I don't quite think she understands how much her beautiful creations has helped me with my anxiety, stress and constant tension. I will be making a list of my personal favorites as I own close to the whole line as I just can't stop myself when there's a sale or a new fragrance comes out... I have unfortunately had to hold back this Fall release which breaks my heart but I highly recommend trying her fragrances if you're into sweet and soothing things. She makes all sorts of things, lotions, hair oils, body balms, roll on fragrance and whipped body scrubs plus more. They are a wonderful bedtime treat. Anyhow... I can go on about these products forever but I'll leave it at that. ❤
I will be making a fashion wishlist later this month and add a second part to this list later as well.
Let me know what you're wishing for this Christmas!
Thursday, 2 November 2017
Look: Current go-to face (October 2017)
Things have changed (a bit)!
I've been trying loads of new things and found a few gems I reach for daily.
So this is my current everyday look:
I don't make too much of a fuss as I frankly don't have time and I live in a warm and humid country so it doesn't last very long anyhow unless it's an evening look.
Products used:
Essence Cosmetics Volume Boost Waterproof Mascara, Colour Correcting Liquid Concealers in Yellow (under eyes) and Pink (highlighting points base).
Neve Cosmetics Eyeliner in White on my waterline.
Colourpopcosmetics Lippie Stix in Cookie for a slightly paler nude lip than my natural colour as lip base.
Lethal Cosmetics Chimera Liquid lipstick in Unforgiven outlining the lips (added after I finished my picture video on Instagram).
Kat Von D Shade+Light Eye Palette for brows, contour, eyes and for setting my under eyes.
Lubov Cosmetics Highlighter in I Want Candy as blush (dark pink shade) and inner corner highlight (light pink shade).
Pixi Beauty Beauty Blush Duo in Peach Honey as blush and highlight base.
F.A.I.R Beauty Cosmetics Pressed Shadow in Witch's Brew on lids.
For more pictures check Instagram @cynthiaiskillikill
❤
I've been trying loads of new things and found a few gems I reach for daily.
So this is my current everyday look:
I don't make too much of a fuss as I frankly don't have time and I live in a warm and humid country so it doesn't last very long anyhow unless it's an evening look.
Products used:
Essence Cosmetics Volume Boost Waterproof Mascara, Colour Correcting Liquid Concealers in Yellow (under eyes) and Pink (highlighting points base).
Neve Cosmetics Eyeliner in White on my waterline.
Colourpopcosmetics Lippie Stix in Cookie for a slightly paler nude lip than my natural colour as lip base.
Lethal Cosmetics Chimera Liquid lipstick in Unforgiven outlining the lips (added after I finished my picture video on Instagram).
Kat Von D Shade+Light Eye Palette for brows, contour, eyes and for setting my under eyes.
Lubov Cosmetics Highlighter in I Want Candy as blush (dark pink shade) and inner corner highlight (light pink shade).
Pixi Beauty Beauty Blush Duo in Peach Honey as blush and highlight base.
F.A.I.R Beauty Cosmetics Pressed Shadow in Witch's Brew on lids.
For more pictures check Instagram @cynthiaiskillikill
❤
Thursday, 12 October 2017
Lifestyle Update: I've gone vegan!
So it finally happened.
Last night me and the husband were watching What The Health and we decided to go vegan.
Simple as that.
So what will change from now is that I will be transitioning to vegan beauty.
Transitioning being an important word here.
I will continue to use my cruelty free items (I'm not going to throw things away) which contain Carmine and Beeswax but I will from now on be adding a little star next to the items which aren't vegan or are... Haven't decided yet! But will be mentioning it on whatever I post, which order it is. Again, I'm still figuring things out and going to be doing some soul searching for a while. I'll be doing random updates here and on Instagram stories.
I'm quite excited for this change.
Might seem silly but it really feels like a weight has been lifted of me, there has been a lot of battles with people who haven't chosen to educate themselves about why being vegan is good.
It has been to the point of where I just don't go out.
It's exhausting defending something you know is good for yourself and the planet. Some people are too comfortable arguing against it because they don't know better. But I have also seen good things, I'm currently helping a guy transition into less meat which makes me so happy. So there are those who want to change but might not know where to start.
So yeah, vegan!
If anyone wants to transition with me, let's do it!
Feel free to share recommendations with me on Instagram (@cynthiaiskillikill).
Last night me and the husband were watching What The Health and we decided to go vegan.
Simple as that.
So what will change from now is that I will be transitioning to vegan beauty.
Transitioning being an important word here.
I will continue to use my cruelty free items (I'm not going to throw things away) which contain Carmine and Beeswax but I will from now on be adding a little star next to the items which aren't vegan or are... Haven't decided yet! But will be mentioning it on whatever I post, which order it is. Again, I'm still figuring things out and going to be doing some soul searching for a while. I'll be doing random updates here and on Instagram stories.
I'm quite excited for this change.
Might seem silly but it really feels like a weight has been lifted of me, there has been a lot of battles with people who haven't chosen to educate themselves about why being vegan is good.
It has been to the point of where I just don't go out.
It's exhausting defending something you know is good for yourself and the planet. Some people are too comfortable arguing against it because they don't know better. But I have also seen good things, I'm currently helping a guy transition into less meat which makes me so happy. So there are those who want to change but might not know where to start.
So yeah, vegan!
If anyone wants to transition with me, let's do it!
Feel free to share recommendations with me on Instagram (@cynthiaiskillikill).
Thursday, 5 October 2017
Haul & Review: Violet Rose Studio Lipsticks.
My order from Violet Rose Studio:
Peach Cocktail: A thick gloss, I did struggle a little with this one as it wanted to bunch up when wearing more than a thin coat. It's however worth the extra work one has to put in for an even application. This is a gorgeous shade with lots of fine gold glitter which makes it a tiny bit gritty but pretty. In my experience best applied in two thin coats with a long haired lip brush (still looks great with just one thin coat and is comfortable). I'm wearing two coats in the picture.
Champagne: A gorgeous, very opaque metallic which was sent as a freebie with my order. It looks beautiful over anything, I've mainly been using it over a dark mauve and wine coloured liners. It's versatile and did I mention that it's gorgeous? Cause it is and comfortable as well so an all round win in my book.
True Romance: This is a shade I've been after for a while! I had a similar lipstick once upon a time. So happy Marshana carries this shade! It's a liquid lipstick which does dry down matte when applied thin, you don't need much product and less is more as it can look streaky in different lighting. Super comfortable, does transfer a bit, easy to reapply or even fix with a dab of lip balm.
All cosmetics by Violet Rose Studio are handmade, cruelty free and vegan. Always keep in mind that there might be minor "flaws" with products which are handmade, separation being the most common thing to occur which is easy to fix by regularly mixing and using the product, so don't be a hoarder!! Use it! The make-up I've tried so far have all been oil based and have had some leakage in transit, luckily it hasn't been bad and I haven't lost a lot of product but thought I would share that. This is a difficult thing to avoid when making oils and liquid based products no matter the packaging.
Other than that, I haven't had any irritation caused by it and nothing smells funky.
Violet Rose Studio also carries a bunch of chokers, glosses, highlighters and is always growing and being tweaked. The page is fairly new and you will probably find it easiest to navigate through the products tab rather than specific categories for now while it's expanding.
To shop: https://violetrosestudio.com
Instagram: @violetrosestudio
Not sponsored content, this was bought by me.
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| Left to Right: Peach Cocktail, Champagne and True Romance. |
Peach Cocktail: A thick gloss, I did struggle a little with this one as it wanted to bunch up when wearing more than a thin coat. It's however worth the extra work one has to put in for an even application. This is a gorgeous shade with lots of fine gold glitter which makes it a tiny bit gritty but pretty. In my experience best applied in two thin coats with a long haired lip brush (still looks great with just one thin coat and is comfortable). I'm wearing two coats in the picture.
Champagne: A gorgeous, very opaque metallic which was sent as a freebie with my order. It looks beautiful over anything, I've mainly been using it over a dark mauve and wine coloured liners. It's versatile and did I mention that it's gorgeous? Cause it is and comfortable as well so an all round win in my book.
True Romance: This is a shade I've been after for a while! I had a similar lipstick once upon a time. So happy Marshana carries this shade! It's a liquid lipstick which does dry down matte when applied thin, you don't need much product and less is more as it can look streaky in different lighting. Super comfortable, does transfer a bit, easy to reapply or even fix with a dab of lip balm.
All cosmetics by Violet Rose Studio are handmade, cruelty free and vegan. Always keep in mind that there might be minor "flaws" with products which are handmade, separation being the most common thing to occur which is easy to fix by regularly mixing and using the product, so don't be a hoarder!! Use it! The make-up I've tried so far have all been oil based and have had some leakage in transit, luckily it hasn't been bad and I haven't lost a lot of product but thought I would share that. This is a difficult thing to avoid when making oils and liquid based products no matter the packaging.
Other than that, I haven't had any irritation caused by it and nothing smells funky.
Violet Rose Studio also carries a bunch of chokers, glosses, highlighters and is always growing and being tweaked. The page is fairly new and you will probably find it easiest to navigate through the products tab rather than specific categories for now while it's expanding.
To shop: https://violetrosestudio.com
Instagram: @violetrosestudio
Not sponsored content, this was bought by me.
Thursday, 28 September 2017
Skincare Disappointments: Round 1.
It has been a while since I've come across something I've been disappointed with.
This week I managed to try two things I hate.
First item:
African Extracts Rooibos - Triple Action Serum.
This is supposed to be the premium selection within this brand.
This serum reeks of alcohol, feels drying and almost evaporated from my hands before I managed to spread it out over my face! I tried this for a little longer than a week and learned to work fast. The strong alcohol smell did however make me stop using it. It just didn't make me feel comfortable using it after making an effort getting rid of alcohol in my skincare many years ago. I was aware of this product containing alcohol beforehand but wanted to see what it was about but I learned my lesson and will go back to proper skincare.
I'll finish this as a hand and foot serum before applying moisturizer.
A real bummer as I do like the cheaper night cream and the face cleansing bar... Not mind blowing stuff but good basics.
Second item:
Juice Beauty - Nutrient Moisturizer
Oh.My.Gosh!
I'm so happy I never bought the full size of this!!!
I've been eyeing this moisturizer for a while because of good reviews, I love the concept of the brand and how they present themselves but man, this was not for me.
I received a sample with a recent order.
My skincare routine is currently: cleanse, tone, eye cream, serum, moisturizer and finishing with oil.
This moisturizer does not agree with extra help.
I was massaging it into my skin as I normally do with my moisturizer when it started to peel a bit.
I thought i would leave it for about 10 minutes in hopes of it being absorbed into my skin before I applied my oil.
Nope, it did not get absorbed, the oil peeled it all off which has never happened before with any other moisturizer.
I don't overwork my face and have used this oil for over a year now (on my third bottle) with around 6 other moisturizers under it without problems.
That's it for now.
I'll hopefully not be sharing any more disappointments in the near future...
*pictures are not mine, they're from the brands pages.
This week I managed to try two things I hate.
First item:
African Extracts Rooibos - Triple Action Serum.
This is supposed to be the premium selection within this brand.
This serum reeks of alcohol, feels drying and almost evaporated from my hands before I managed to spread it out over my face! I tried this for a little longer than a week and learned to work fast. The strong alcohol smell did however make me stop using it. It just didn't make me feel comfortable using it after making an effort getting rid of alcohol in my skincare many years ago. I was aware of this product containing alcohol beforehand but wanted to see what it was about but I learned my lesson and will go back to proper skincare.
I'll finish this as a hand and foot serum before applying moisturizer.
A real bummer as I do like the cheaper night cream and the face cleansing bar... Not mind blowing stuff but good basics.
Second item:
Juice Beauty - Nutrient Moisturizer
Oh.My.Gosh!
I'm so happy I never bought the full size of this!!!
I've been eyeing this moisturizer for a while because of good reviews, I love the concept of the brand and how they present themselves but man, this was not for me.
I received a sample with a recent order.
My skincare routine is currently: cleanse, tone, eye cream, serum, moisturizer and finishing with oil.
This moisturizer does not agree with extra help.
I was massaging it into my skin as I normally do with my moisturizer when it started to peel a bit.
I thought i would leave it for about 10 minutes in hopes of it being absorbed into my skin before I applied my oil.
Nope, it did not get absorbed, the oil peeled it all off which has never happened before with any other moisturizer.
I don't overwork my face and have used this oil for over a year now (on my third bottle) with around 6 other moisturizers under it without problems.
That's it for now.
I'll hopefully not be sharing any more disappointments in the near future...
*pictures are not mine, they're from the brands pages.
Friday, 22 September 2017
Haul: My Pretty Zombie Cosmetics.
I finally did it!
I've been following My Pretty Zombie (MPZ) for what feels like FOREVER!!! Has taken me so damn long to place an order due to me being so indecisive... The vast selection doesn't make it easier.
But enough about that, here's what I got:
- SNAP Cats pin, because I had to... This was actually the reason I finally got some stuff... Nothing like a charity pin to suck me in.
- 1 full size shadow in the shade Varicose, which is GORGEOUS! I've already used a few of the items from this order.
- 2 samples of Dr.Pickles Miraculous Beauty Dust, Green & Pink.
- 3 sample eyeshadows in the shades Static, Garnish and C'mon doll boy, dance. (I mainly got samples as I had not tried anything from thins company before)
In addition to my order I was sent a few more samples and cute stuff like the Kittie seen in the picture, yay! 🙌🎉👏
(You wouldn't know I have a dog from the ridiculous amounts of cat items I have....)
So yeah, that's it for now!
I will be doing some comparison swatches on finishes, similar shades and performance once I've had a chance to use everything. Time has just been vanishing the past months and I'm currently getting back into the swing of things.
Life and blog update to follow in the coming month as I try to set a scheduled for content and don't worry, I'm not pregnant, sick or anything bad, I'm just finding balance in life. 😊
Make sure to keep an eye on my Instagram (@cynthiaiskillikill) as I'll be posting looks using these products in the coming weeks as well as loads of other new goodies I'm trying out.
I've been following My Pretty Zombie (MPZ) for what feels like FOREVER!!! Has taken me so damn long to place an order due to me being so indecisive... The vast selection doesn't make it easier.
But enough about that, here's what I got:
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| Click picture to go to MPZ's page. |
- 1 full size shadow in the shade Varicose, which is GORGEOUS! I've already used a few of the items from this order.
- 2 samples of Dr.Pickles Miraculous Beauty Dust, Green & Pink.
- 3 sample eyeshadows in the shades Static, Garnish and C'mon doll boy, dance. (I mainly got samples as I had not tried anything from thins company before)
In addition to my order I was sent a few more samples and cute stuff like the Kittie seen in the picture, yay! 🙌🎉👏
(You wouldn't know I have a dog from the ridiculous amounts of cat items I have....)
So yeah, that's it for now!
I will be doing some comparison swatches on finishes, similar shades and performance once I've had a chance to use everything. Time has just been vanishing the past months and I'm currently getting back into the swing of things.
Life and blog update to follow in the coming month as I try to set a scheduled for content and don't worry, I'm not pregnant, sick or anything bad, I'm just finding balance in life. 😊
Make sure to keep an eye on my Instagram (@cynthiaiskillikill) as I'll be posting looks using these products in the coming weeks as well as loads of other new goodies I'm trying out.
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